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So I had everything planned....I was going to get some last minute items for my trip last night, do my nails, pack and have everything ready so that as soon as I got off work I could just take off...even already filled the gas tank. Well nothing goes as planned...EVER!

I get a call around 9:30: "can you come in and work?......its going to be busy and we cant get anyone else to work". For a minute I was close to saying, no thanks, bye but then I actually thought for a minute...."hey I could make some money...if it IS busy...OK". So I agreed. "Oh can you come down right away"....."sure, Im on my way"...

So I get there and set up, I made some money and I only had 2 drinks to keep me going. I felt fine, didnt get very tired towards the end of the night or tipsy. I did however see some interesting things as I always do at the club..I should start calling it the melting pot of confusion and enterainment. Well it does great for journal stories!

It was an 18 and over party and no offense to anyone, but they usually dont have the club scene down yet. The main aspect being money. They either dont have it or they dont how to use it, like how to tip..well right away I got some funny duddies...2 girls come up and give me their jackets for coat check. "$3" I tell them.****they look at me with those stupid faces****"huh?". " Coat check is $3" I say again. "Oh, we didnt bring any money though". ***Me with a stupid look on MY face now****"Sorry, cant help you" I say and turn to the next customers before I can get the courage to yell " If you dont have any money, then why the hell are you here?!!!!!!" Geezzzz....and I actually had that same scenario quite a few times throughout the night. I wonder if I was that duddie when I started going out???

Throughout the night I saw a girls crack, a guy doing the robot, a group of about 15 doing the electric slide, I got hit on by the Rick Fox look-a-like, and I saw and a guy doing the cabbage patch. There was much more, but those are the highlights.

There was a girl towards the begining of the night that was wearing a really short skirt and she was dancing with this guy in front of where I was and she did this dance move where she bends over and then BAM I saw it. CRACK! And I think a couple other people saw it too because I saw a couple heads do a double take.** That was my thrill of the night**

I never really realized how uninhibited the younger crowd is. I mean I never really went to 18 and over clubs much, maybe a few. I always hung out with an older crowd so I never really saw this. Well, they certainly let loose more than the older crowd and I mean by the way they dance. They dance like they scankiest rap video hos do. Haha, but it looked like they were having fun.

They started to play some old stuff towards the very end of the night, like the last 5 songs. They played MotownPhilly and thats when I saw the guy doing the robot and the other guy doing the cabbage patch, I was cracking up. It didnt help that I had to pee like crazy and there was no one to relieve me...urgh!

Sometime during the night the Rick Fox look-a-like came over to say hi when he saw that I was working. I know all the guys and they all know Chris so they all treat me sooo good. They take care of me big time. Well anyways..There is this bouncer that looks like a larger version of Rick Fox, down to the curly hair. He just looks a lot more buff. Well I've talked with him before but usually its too busy to really chat. Well it was early and it was a little slow, so we were chatting. He was asking the usual stuff like where you from, where you work..and then after about 20 questions...the dreaded question.. "Do you have a boyfriend?" I was like huh? Then I was like ".....Dont you know Chris?.....the bartender from Hawaii...." and he looked a little embarassed but I had assumed he knew..oh well. He disappeared shortly after that and I didnt see him the rest of the night...darn. ...men can be so duddie.

What the hell does duddie mean? I think I might have made it up..? Anyone ever heard of it before? Maybe I should have it published...hehe

zzzzzzzzz.....what was I sayng again?......

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Guess what!!!!! I am going to LA again, leaving tomorrow as soon as I get off of work, hopefully early so I wont get too much traffic..I cant wait! I have to go to the beach this time, no matter what. I think I will take my school work and read up or something while I catch some rays!!!! YIPPPPEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Well I am definetely getting a belly. This I am happy about. Its a small belly, but its still in the works. I find small bellies quite fascinating for some reason.

I have always been incredibly skinny, thanks to mothers genes, but I have always hated it. I was always bony and gawky. I always wanted to be voluptuous and warm. As a kid I saw these type of people as jolly, happy people and I longed for that.

It wasnt until I was almost 20 that I started to gain a few pounds, probably from getting on the pill and all of a sudden I had an ass! But I wanted more. I wanted a larger bust and although I have some hips and trunk, I wanted more there too. I decided that was my goal. I know it sounds ridiculous and vain, but I was very unhappy with myself.

So I decided to eat nothing but junk food and fatty foods with very little excercise. But I knew that this would be no easy task. My mother had 4 kids, never excercised and and she only weighed about 15 pounds more than me. I was praying that my other family genes would kick in at any second and ba-bam.

My Dad used to actually tell me thats what would happen because I was such a pig. All my aunts and uncles were active and skinny in high school and they all had big appetites. Then when they got out of school, they werent as active and had families and they just gained weight.

I always ate what I wanted so it wasnt a matter of making myself eat, but I had always tried to balance it out with something healthy. So I tried my new diet for a while, maybe 6 months and then my mother got a galstone. It looked painful, and my friend told me "see what you have to look forward to"..well it scared me. I've never had any health issues, never even broken a bone or anything.

So I ditched the plan and went back to my normal eating habits.I figured there was always plastic srugery....but I knew I would be too scared for even that, oh well.

I have always been athletic so I started back up, until earlier this year when I was training to run a marathon and I pulled a muscle. Havent run on it since. Since then I have also been working my ass off in the office. I mean I have been busy but, not in the excerise kind of way.

Hence my new belly. I didnt really notice it until yesterday. I mean I noticed that I was loosing my muscle, and my pants were getting tighter, but I didnt notice until yesterday really.

As I sat down at my desk, I looked down and sure enough there it was. Just a cute little pouch barely hanging over my pants..!

I forgot how boring school can be. Oh and dont forget stressful. So now I have English to bitch about. I have 4 essays due in 2 weeks already........HELP! Ok, English is probably my worst subject. I mean I love to read and I think I write ok, even good at times, but I guess not. My last professor practically told me I was a horrible writer..geez.. I dont know how I passed that class with all the red-penciled-up papers I got back. Anyways, I am dreading this one so much, I have a headache just thinking about it. So that is up to about 4 essays a week and 2 chapters of reading for 2 classes. I start Math tonight...but I wont say anything in case I jinx myself. I love Math and I usually do well in it. ****Praying for continuous math skills*****

The other night Chico caught a fly, it was great. There is always a fly that finds its way into the house every night. I dont know why, I mean our house is hotter inside than it is outside....But every day there is some fly buzzing around and Chico goes dashing after it like a mad man. Chico is very protective so I think he thinks its an intruder or something. Sometimes he gets all frustrated after chasing it for a while. He's never caught one so we really dont pay attention anymore. Well the other night we were watching him act all like the hunter. He'd stand still and watch for any movement, then the fly would come ripping outta nowhere and he was off after it again. Well he did this s few times, and we were just cracking up.

Well after a while he starts pawing at the pillow and I look down, sure enough theres a little fly injured and buzzing around on it. Chicos trying to lick it up but its too small and so we take it away and then he starts prancing around the house like hes king! Haha it was funny.

Well the weekend was pretty nice. I didnt do a very lot, but I didnt laze about. Friday night I had my first Psych class at school and it was amazingly short. I met a nice Philippino girl for a study partner and the professor seems pretty cool, but its going to be a lot of work. We have to go through 18 chapters this semester, ouch! So thats about a little over a chapter a week. And these chapters are not short! We have to write a journal from our reading and another from from the weekly videos on top of our assignments, yikes!

So after class I decided to go out by myself. I had intended to talk to my friend who was going to be there but I totally forgot after I ran into him to ask him for that favor. Ran into someone I really really dont like. I tried to be nice and ignore her (yes thats being nice) but she didnt get the idea. she kept saying "dont you remember me?" and I would reply, "yes, thats why I am ignoring you". And she kept saying " no, you dont its me Samantha", and I would reply, " yes I know, that is why I am ignoring you". But she just didnt get it. I was being nice, because I actually wanted to knock her out. I was being nice because I work there and it would be stupid. But she kept running into me and acting like nothing " I am so bored" she kept saying. And I would reply" thats probably because your sober". All the small banter she just didnt get though or chose to ignore. Ughh finally I lost her in the crowd and enjoyed myself. The only thing about knowing everyone at the club and going on a night off is you usually get drunk or at least tipsy. Seeing that there are at least 7 bartenders on usually and a couple managers that you have to have a drink with or you will get drinks sent to you from, its hard not to get tipsy. Well I figured Id be there a while and let them come. Chris usually doesnt get off till about 4 am so theres plenty of time to sboer up for the drive home. Go figure that friday was the night he would get off early! HAha, oh well it was fun.

When I was getting ready to go out, my grandma called and asked what I was doing tomorrow. Nothing, I think. Can I help her pick up some tables for her garage sale then? Sure..How about 7 or 8 in the morning..sure. So after sleeping a few hours, I am awoken at 7:30 by my home phone, ok I am up, and I am coming. In a daze I actually help her dig through her work warehouse for the heaviest tables ever. Somewhere in my daze I was able to help her set them up, and then by the time I got home, I was wide awake! So I showered and then went over there, all of the family was there so I got to spend the day running around with the kids and yapping with the aunts and uncles. It was nice, it was fun. But boy was I tired!

So tonight is my first class for the fall semester. I am looking forward to it, it is psychology. Hopefully all goes well...it is a telecourse and even though the last one I took, I learned a lot, the professor sucked. He never showed up to class on time when he did bother to show up.

I could tell he was very knowledgable about the class, but I dont think he put in as much effort as he should have. I guess he was made to do it because the person who was suppose to teach it got a better job and just left. Hopefully this isnt the same case. I hope to do well in this class so that next semester I can do something along the lines of child psychology to help get ready for fostering.

Anyways, wish me luck!

This is disturbing:
HOUSTON - The father of slain Baylor basketball player Patrick Dennehy alleged in a lawsuit Friday that his son received "violent threats" because he was trying to expose wrongdoing in the school's athletic program.


The suit, filed by Patrick Dennehy Sr., seeks unspecified damages and names Baylor University, former coach Dave Bliss, school President Robert Sloan, former athletic director Tom Stanton and others associated with the program.


Dennehy disappeared in mid-June and his body was found in a field July 25. He had been shot twice in the head. Former teammate and roommate Carlton Dotson is in jail in Maryland, accused of murder.


According to the lawsuit, after getting no response over his concerns about improprieties within the school's basketball program, Dennehy Jr. decided it was his responsibility to expose "illegal activities within the athletic department."


"Shortly after making that decision, Patrick became the target of violent threats against his person and soon became fearful for his life," the lawsuit states. It said school administrators and the athletic department "again turned their backs on Patrick."


It also states that "Bliss's very presence at Baylor created an unsafe atmosphere for the student athletes and ultimately led to the murder."


"The Dennehy family has been provided lies and cover-up and dirtying of their son's reputation," Richard Laminack, one of the father's attorneys, said at a news conference Friday.


The attorney, referring to a tape on which Bliss said that Dennehy could not argue about the basketball program's problems because he was dead, responded, "He was wrong. Our legal system affords Patrick an opportunity to be heard and to confront those responsible for his death."


Laminack said Drayton McLane, chairman of the Baylor board of regents and owner of the Houston Astros (news), also was named in the suit because he is "the top man" and had headed the committee to originally hire Bliss.


Sloan said Friday on ABC's "Good Morning America" that he hadn't seen the pending lawsuit and had no comment.


The school launched an internal inquiry in July into possible NCAA (news - web sites) violations after allegations surfaced of improper payments to players following Dennehy's death. Bliss and Stanton resigned Aug. 8.


Last week, secretly taped conversations were released in which Bliss could be heard trying to get players and assistant coaches to go along with a plot to say Dennehy was a drug dealer.


Laminack and attorney Daniel Cartwright disputed contentions that Dennehy's father played little role in his son's life, saying the two had reconnected in recent years. They had "worked hard in rekindling their relationship," Cartwright said.


The suit was filed in Houston, the attorneys said, to better ensure a fair forum because Baylor has "so much influence" in Waco. They also said that while Dennehy's mother and stepfather were not plaintiffs in the suit, they hoped the couple would join.







What is wrong with people?

Is my arse getting bigger, or did my pants just start to shrink all of a sudden? Uh-Oh...genes creeping up, better get a tread mill...

I hate banks, they really suck. They always mess something up. Remind me to never work for one if I ever think about it. Ok, back to work....

Ok after my last post, I decided I needed a little explanation. I work in finance and so I know, but not everyone does. Not everyone knows my quirky humor either. Well Basically my last entry was just me being funny. My calculations of becoming a millionaire arent accurate at all. I was just being funny. So if anyone was confused by my assumptions, be advised it was just a JOKE! hahah. I crack myself up!

The last week has been both good and bad. It was good because I have been getting off my lazy ass and actually getting things done. Things like cleaning house, working in my garden, doing laundry, getting all those little tasks done around the office I have ben puttin goff and I have been good about updating my website. It was bad because I have had a lot of expenses this month and my part time job hasnt needed me very much. I only worked a couple nights in the last 3 weeks, yuck. Well next month should be a lot better, I should only have my usual bills, but somehow something always comes up.

This month I had to pay a stupid ticket and school tuition(which went up again!), and then I also went to LA and that isnt free. It has been this way for the last 5 months, some new bill or expense just pops up. The funny thing is I havent really been getting anything for the money Im dishing out. It all started in April, I had to pay taxes because our payroll company had me claiming 3 for some damn reason. Their screw up, but I get to pay. Then in May I went to New Mexico for my brothers graduation, that was a lot of gas money and hotel, food, etc. In June I went to LA for a weekend to see my brother. In July I had to replace the water pump in my truck. And now its August and I had the usual pop up bills.

I am hoping to be able to save more money for my vacation next year. I want it to be great, I dont want to have to do the cheapie vacation thing. I need a nice, long, exciting one. The last year has been full of weekend and mini trips, I want a real one! Galapagos here I come...

So in March I finally got my shit together and opened up some money market accounts and an IRA account. In the last 6 months I've made a whooping $250 off of about $1500 put in. At this rate I will be a millionare by the time I am 308 years old! Now thats just disgusting to me, but I guess I should be lucky that I havent lost anything yet. But even if I double my investment, I will still not be a millionaire until I am 165 years old! Now, if I invest $30,000 a year at the rate I am going I can be a millionaire by the time I am 51 years old, now thats much better. Then I can pay for my lavish retirement home, the most up to date scooter or wheelchair, and all of my medications, creams and for all the diapers I might need. hehe

I was thinking well maybe I can cut back on my bills. Lets see, I only pay $600 rent, but my car payments are just as much! I thought that was funny. I can live in a dump, but I have to have a nice car! Just imagine me driving my cadiallac through the ghetto. haha. If we move soon, I might be able to reduce the rent so lets hope...then I can help Robert out more, maybe save enough to get him some classes or something. I was thinking we could take some of the same classes so we wouldnt have to buy two sets of books! Oh no I am becoming a cheap ass! As long as I am a good tipper, who cares right?

I finally started my Kids Corner on my website. Took me all weekend to figure out how to get the stupid word to open up and set up the link. When Phil finally told me what to do, it was the simplest thing. What a dork I can be at times. Well I guess I just like to do things the good old hard way, I figure I learn more that way. You know like not reading the damn instructions or help tools, instead just trying to figure it out by clicking on all of the tools. Anyways I finally got it together and I actually got some replies. I even got a request for some Sponge Bob surprise gifts! I had to remind them that there was an age limit though, it was my friend Andy who happens to be my age! Haha, to bad I think he worked pretty hard on his answers..

Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

So my mentoring group always has tickets to different events around the bay area, but Ana(the girl I mentor) usually doesnt care for any of them. But I got an email that they had some Raiders vs. the Niners tickets last week and I emailed them back and got them! I was pretty psyched!

So last night Ana and I went. I knew we were probably going to be late, but I couldnt leave any earlier than 3:30 and the game started at 5. I still had to pick up Ana too. It took us almost 2 hour from the time I picked her at around 4:15 up till we got to the stadium. It was the second quarted by then, but I dont think we missed much. We were bumper to bumper on the freeway for two hours that is usually no more than 20-30 minutes. Oh well it was still interesting.

You could tell who was going to the game, all the fans were sporting there teams logo everywhere. Flags waving, people yelling, and everyone in their jerseys. A couple of times some already drunk, goofy looking guys pulled up " hey wazzzzzzz uppppppp!" to Ana and I. I politely said hi and then pretended to be talking to Ana...After a while I told Ana the next time I am going to turn around and belch at them and give them a retard look like the ones they were giving us and go " hey wazzzzzzz upppp!" back. Didnt get the chance to return the favor.

Driving through the parking lot was another mission. The size of these parking spaces was ridiculous, finding a spot for my big bus of a truck was a task. Plus every spot that some guys were BBQing, theyd be like " hey you wanna park here?" as they smack their lips and talk with their mouths full, slugging beers with a mouth of teeth full of food still, ewww. A couple even followed us after we kept on driving, I made sure to keep my window rolled all the way up...and I decided I was parking wayyyyyy far from those groups. I finally found a decent spot, but it took me a couple back and forths to get it just right so that everyone around me had at least a few inches of space!

We finally found our seats and as we are sitting down some niner fan a couple seats up stands up and says " get the f-ck outta here in our house with that sh-t" pointing to my Raider jersey. Uh, ok whatever and I just sit and ignore him. Obviously drunk, this guy made a stupid remark every 5 seconds. It got to the point where all the Raider fans around us would just laugh, but everyone was starting to get annoyed because we couldnt hear the game. I heard the guy behind me say " and they wonder why we call them the winers!" hahahhah. I always hear that the Raider fans are the worse, as in obnoxious, but I didnt see one of them outta line at this game and I saw A WHOLE LOTTA niner fans acting stupid.

Oh well I am sure that if it were a home game it would have been a sure thing. But still it was fun. We lost, I got shit the whole walk to the car and that was that, but it was still fun. Would love to do it again anyday.

My story continues....

So we all ended up finding our ways. I took my aunt and cousin home, and then my brother and I took off on our own with a few hours of light still left. I still needed a pair of black heels so that I could go out with that night so we headed over to Stonewood mall. Gosh I hadnt been there since I was small. My grandmother used to take me to the cafeteria there and we'd pig out when I was very small. I found a pair right away and we were off again.

We headed back to the property to hang out and visit. I had brought my grandpa some nutter butters cause they were on sale when I went to get snacks for the trip before we left. When we were kids and he'd come to visit, he would always bring us some so I thought it was cool that I was now bringing him some.

We hung out with Grandma some and my aunt by the pool, but I still hadnt heard back from any of my friends about where we were going. One friend called, "so where are we going", I dunno yet. When I finally heard back I started to get ready and an hour later I was on the road. I was finally going to get to wear my dress!!

We had fun out, same old thing really, me out with the guys, them getting drunk, acting like dorks and me chauffering them around. I did get to get some tacos though!

Next day, Robert and I lazed about a bit. I was thinking of going to the beach, but I was too lazy. Plus I wanted to go all day, but there was no time to. We went swimming as we waited for everyone else to figure out who they were going to drive back with. I had already told them all I was leaving at 4, with whoever was ready. I must of got 20 calls in the last hour from them all trying to figure it out. I just chilled in the pool the whole time. When finally my mom and my uncle showed up around 6 we left, but we still had to stop by my other grandpas house to say hi and bye.

Usually when we stop by there, no matter how short we try to keep it, we end up there for the whole day. We actually were able to keep this one close to an hour. After we left we still had to eat and pick up some pastramis so to Jims we went. We pigged out. I drove for a couple hours after, but my eyes were getting heavy. After laying in the pool all day in the sun and then stuffing myself, I was ready for bed and so goes my LA story...

Well its already Thurday and I just realized that I still havent written about my trip. I have been busy and well a little lazy. My trip to LA was ok, but as always very evenful. Anything involving family or LA is always eventful, so I have a lot to update you on.

From the begining I was thinking that this trip was going to be a trip from hell. I was already remembering our last trip to New Mexico, which actually went ok until the last day when it kind of then blew up! I had to idea what the arrangements were, just that I was driving with my brother and possibly some others. My family has a habit of not planning things and then running around like chickens without heads when things dont work out. Well I didnt find anything out until the last hours of departure, even when I tried to get a hold of everyone, they all said the same thing "I dunno". I finally talked to my aunt and she told me when she got off of work, so I said ok, right after she gets out, well leave. Then she says can we take someone with us, a friend of mines kid wants to go to LA to see their Mom, so I was like fine.

Then I get a call that I have to take my Mom too and she doesnt get out of work till late, and I am like great. But I later found out she got out early. So I am running around trying to get everything ready, didnt even have time to take a shower and Chris is like "oh I need you to take me to my friends house before you leave". Shit. When I show a little frustration, he gets mad "what you want me to take a cab or something", geez.......No fine I say. I talk to my aunt again and she says oh just so you know that person I asked to take is Alberts nephew, so please dont say anything rude about Albert in fromof him. Ok now I absolutley hate Albert, hes nothing but a manipulative, lying, cheating ass. But my aunt always runs back to him. Nice of her to mention that at the last minute after I already agreed to it. Gotta love my family, huh.

So the drive down was almost uneventful. We got stuck on the highway half way there because of an accident. We were seriously stuck in the same spot for like 45 minutes to an hour. And the whole way my Grandma and my two uncles in another car who supposedely left about 4-5 hours earlier than us kept calling "were you at now?" And then when wed ask them all you could here was all of them talking at once, yelling, the radio, it was just great(sarcasm). Anyways during one of their 2000 calls along the way, they decide they are going to get a room. I didnt really care, my brother and I were staying at my aunts house. So we drop off the nephew of A-hole and then we head over to their hotel.

Now the whole time I am askingmy Mom where she is staying and she's like I dunno. I am like great. There isnt any room at my aunts, I mean my brother and I are sleeping on the only two couches there. Just because she couldnt plan now we get to sleep on the floor, and after driving 5 hours, just great. But no, at the last minute she wants us to drop her off at the hotel with everyone else even though it is completely out of the way now. So we drop her off and then I still have to drop off my aunt at her dads house, but at least its on the way to my other aunts. We finally get to my aunts at around 4 in the morning! Usually I am there by midnight!

When we get there, I cant find Chicos leash, musta fallen out when we dropped some off and they grabbed their luggage, great. I go to put him in my grandmas backyard where he always stays and its locked, great. So my brother grabs him and puts him over the fence, but it isnt very stable and I am afraid he might get out. Well I will have to deal with it in the morning.

I get up early like 8-9 to feed Chico and he is laying on the front lawn! Thank goodness he was hungry and didnt run off! I put him back in the back yard and knock on my grandmas door to see if she can help me with the gate problem. We finally get it to work and then I go back to sleep. A few hours later, my cousins little baby comes into the living room and is looking at us funny like who the hell are these two in my playroom. We're like might as well get up. So I go and get ready at grandmas.

We went to the swap meet and I got some new sneakers, then we had to head on our way to the reunion. We grabbed some El Pollo Loco, picked up my aunt and cousin and we were on the way. we had a good time, seeing old family, and them getting drunk and everything. But I was ready to go once it hit 5. Then we had the lovely task of deciding who is going with who.

More later...

Today is Friday and I am going to LA in 3 hours! YIIIIIIIIIPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Will tell you all about my adventure Monday..